The Part Of This Journey I Hate Saying Out Loud

What nearly stopped me this week wasn't the algorithm. It was me.

Some days I look at my Skool community and think, who am I kidding. The numbers, the silence, the slow days. It’s not the algorithm that shakes me. It’s the voice that says maybe you’re not the one. Maybe you’re building something that doesn’t want to be built.

I hate that voice. Mostly because it sounds like me.

It shows up in the cracks. After long workdays. When I’m staring at a screen trying to write a post that feels flat. When someone else in another community is clearly hitting their stride and I start comparing my Chapter One to their Chapter Twenty.

The whisper is always the same: You are not the one people follow.

And if I’m honest, that voice hit me harder this week than usual. Work drained me. The kind of day where you shut the laptop and feel like someone unplugged your soul. I nearly skipped posting. Nearly talked myself into shrinking.

But here’s what I keep coming back to: The community grows when I show up. Not perfect. Not polished. Just present.

People don’t follow certainty. They follow honesty. They follow someone who’s willing to build in the open instead of pretending to have it all figured out.

So today, I’m saying it out loud. I feel the doubt. I hear the whisper. And I’m building anyway.

Because that’s what reinvention looks like in the messy middle. Not confidence. Commitment.

So let me ask you: Where is self doubt trying to shrink you this week, and what are you going to build anyway?

CTRL: R

The newsletter is the spark.
The community is the fire.

CTRL Signals by JP Bristol
Clarity. Tenacity. Reinvention. Legacy.

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